Monday, November 16, 2015

On to the next one?

I made the decision that I wanted to come back to blogging. However, I honestly think that I'm going to have to leave this blog and start a new one. Which is very sad, but at this point I'm so sick of all the drama and games. 

After my last post I received a very immature and disturbing Facebook message from a family member of my ex. Asking why I didn't disclose other information about things I did. The allegations that were listed in this Facebook message makes me completely understand why I'm getting prank calls almost daily and why friends and family members of my ex keep contacting me. 

Sometimes when people are wrong, they place blame on anyone they can. And I guess when that same person lies a lot, they'll never admit to false statements. Yes, I have a lot of proof, including voice recordings, that would make these people think twice about what they were told. However, I'm not looking to play dirty. I'm actually not looking to play at all.

The games that these people are playing are absolutely pathetic. I'm very grateful that I'm out of that situation. It has made me realize that it wasn't just the past two months that I was lied to and used... it was the entire relationship. Realizing that has made it so much easier for me to be happy.

There was not a single thing I could of done to prevent the cheating, the bullying and everything else. Not having the house completely spotless when he came home early, not finishing folding the clothes before he noticed, not properly hanging my towel, and not knowing that I should of had his oil changed in his car had absolutely nothing to do with it. It was just another excuse to yell at me and make me the bad person.

I'm so sick of dealing with all of this. I don't want to start over with a new blog, but I'm not okay with certain people reading it. 

I appreciate all of you that have e-mailed me about this situation. Your support has been exactly what I needed in order to deal with all of the pathetic drama. I'm at a really great point in my life. I'm feeling more positive than ever and currently in the process of making a wonderful life change. I'm so excited for what the future holds.

3 comments:

  1. Mandy!! I'm so sorry about everything going on. I understand your need to go private and although I don't know you personally I have enjoyed reading over the years. I would love to continue to have that opportunity but if not, I get it. Good luck with everything in life. You absolutely deserve to be happy.

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  2. Mandy-- I'm sorry you're going thru all this. I will definitely keep you in my prayers. I have thought about starting another blog too since I've gotten sober. I feel like all the entries on this blog are complete lies and they remind me not only of the darkness of my addiction but also how I was in such denial about what was really going on. I hope you will send me the link to your new blog if that's what you decide to do. I love reading your blog because you are honest and it's nice to read a blog that doesn't just talk about the good things in life but also the struggles. Hang in there girl. Love ya.

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  3. Mandy-- I'm sorry you're going thru all this. I will definitely keep you in my prayers. I have thought about starting another blog too since I've gotten sober. I feel like all the entries on this blog are complete lies and they remind me not only of the darkness of my addiction but also how I was in such denial about what was really going on. I hope you will send me the link to your new blog if that's what you decide to do. I love reading your blog because you are honest and it's nice to read a blog that doesn't just talk about the good things in life but also the struggles. Hang in there girl. Love ya.

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