Since that day, I have admitted that secret to 4 different people. The secret has to do with the way I feel about a certain situation. The way I've always felt about it. I don't want to feel this way, but I'm apparently not in control of that. It doesn't help that those 4 people have encouraged me to give it a shot and do what makes me happy.
I've regretted losing things in the past because I pretended not to care. I don't want to have regrets. I want to be able to just go for things and if it doesn't go as planned, at least I tried. I want to give my all instead of holding back because I fear a negative outcome.
I actually was very hesitant to post this, but then I read my horoscope for today..
I can't think of a better day to start living life without fear of a let down. I need to just start going after the things I want and not stop myself. Obviously it's easier said than done, but effort is the best way to start.
After all, we never know when the bus is coming.