I'm sitting here trying to finish one of my drafts I've started this week. Sometimes I feel like I have so many things that I want to blog about so I just end up not blogging. I also feel like my stress level and my ADD have teamed up and made me the most unproductive person ever lately. I keep putting everything off and now I just feel overwhelmed. Very overwhelmed. My mind is constantly racing. Instead of trying to focus on one topic today I'm just going to vent and ramble. Maybe it will help clear my head a little.
I currently hate school. There are times that I feel like I can't do it.
My room needs to be deep cleaned. I have clothes absolutely everywhere. I can't even deal with being in there lately. Yes, it's THAT bad.
I keep having fat days. No, I didn't say I was fat. I know it's because I'm not working out. I'm skinnier than I was last summer, but I don't feel toned. That's an issue for me.
Speaking of not feeling positive about body image.. I read this blog post by Rachel. This was the first that I heard about what the Abercrombie & Fitch CEO said about "fat chicks".. (You can read the article here) I'm so disgusted by it. I always hated that if you bought anything from A&F or HCO in high school you were guaranteed to match at least 4 other people. It's a store that sells really simple clothing. There is nothing super fashionable about it. I'd much rather shop at a store with fashionable clothes than be a "cool kid".
Marilyn Monroe wasn't a size 0 and she looked fabulous. I wouldn't consider her fat, but then again I guess I'm crazy because I don't think being skin and bones is attractive.
If you follow me on Twitter you might of noticed I've been obsessed with the Jodie Arias trial. FINALLY a guilty verdict.
I don't want to work tonight, but I need to make lots of money.
Coffee really doesn't seem to do the trick anymore.. maybe I'm just not drinking enough of it.
I feel like I'm constantly second guessing myself about a lot of things lately. It's almost like I don't know what I want, what I need and what will make me happy. That's not relationship related, it's many different things in life right now.
I don't have enough hours in the day to get everything accomplished.
As I'm writing this I'm realizing that it's really not clearing my head the way I thought it would. I feel like when I get home from work tonight I'm going to have a complete breakdown.
I really want to get back to blogging. I also want to get back on track with life in general. The past few months haven't been that great and I really need to de-stress. Please feel free to fill me in on any tips you have!!
I'll post tomorrow, I promise this time.