I never thought that I would be writing this… let alone as I’m sobbing. I’m considering deleting my social networks.
I feel like I don’t even know if I want to keep blogging. I have always had to deal with bulling. But, lately I feel like maybe my social networks are giving them fuel. A few weeks ago I had these two girls I used to be friends with in high school post all over my Facebook all of this crap pretty much calling me a loser and that I do nothing with my life. All because I go to a private college (my program is only available at like 10 colleges in Michigan). At my college I have 10 week classes opposed to 15 like other colleges.. it’s a hell of a lot harder and I know no one realizes it.. ANYWAYS… tonight.. I get this message…
I posted it on facebook.. Immature? I don’t care.. I said this on my status… ”Oh, wahh. I went to Schoolcraft (which is also a community college) and I'm certified in Phlebotomy but unfortunately working in a hospital with that kind of job doesn't give me even close to half the money I make working at a bar. Yes, I go to Baker because the program I'm going into isn't offered at the community college you attend. Or any local college/university. Let's be real now, my post will never be as mature as yours and go on and on about how much I hate guys and how heart broken I am after the same guy cheats on me 12 times in a row.”
My status actually received positive feedback.
But… Honestly, this was from a girl who posts about her on and off relationship with some dude who has cheated on her over and over. So, I know that this shouldn’t bother me.. but, it’s just been one thing after another and honestly I’m just done. Luckily Lucas was here with me while I let things sink in. His response? “You’re open about your life on social media networks. You have to expect some people to use stuff against you. Then you have to weed out the people that will use stuff against you.” Actually, I just expected people to be adults. So, I’m trying to decide if I’m going to just be done with all of this internet bullshit or if I’m going to just associate with the blogging side of things. I love blogging, I love the people I have met through blogging.. which is why I’m turning to you guys as I’m crying, writing this.. and as my boyfriend is sitting there trying to cheer me up. I never let things get to me.. I just think I’ve been dealing with so much of this that I no long know that to do….