Thursday, December 1, 2011

Sweet like a kiss, sharp like a razor blade.

I want to just delete last night's post.. but I'll leave it since I got a good laugh out of it. I'm obviously still really tired, but no worries I actually know what I'm typing right now. Haha. Sorry about all of that..
I did almost all of my Christmas shopping online. I love coming home to like 5 boxes a day. Yesterday was the start.
I have to admit, some of it was for me. I bought a pair of EMU Australia boots.. since my mom said I can't buy any more UGGS until after Christmas. I also got this book..

I loved the other book "Why Men Love Bitches". So I had to get this.
Yesterday I was wearing my new Red Wings winter coat and my mom told me that I need a red wings scarf.. Obviously I agreed.. She went into the other room and came back with the Red Wings scarf she was going to give me for Christmas. 
I look like poop, but whatever. I take shitty pictures anyways. You know how so many girls look so pretty in their pictures and then you see them in person and you can't believe photoshop is THAT good? Yeah.. I'm the opposite. Lucas told me he was scared that I was going to be one of those girls since he thought so highly of my pictures.. but he thinks I look way better in person. Most people tell me that.  So if I say I look like crap in a picture, it's not so someone will tell me "OH EM GEE, No you're sooo pretty"... it's simply because 9 times out of 10 I look like crap in a picture. 
Anyways, after work I changed really quick and went to dinner with Allison and then we went to Caribou to study. Oh, here I even have a picture! Haha, I can't remember why I took it.. I probably was going to put it on Picplz and decided against it... 
 I look 12 and I somehow managed to look very... wide. But, oh well. Actually, since I'm analyzing how horrible I look in all these I just remembered that yesterday one of my discussions in my one class was about eating disorders. I mentioned about how so many people used to go on and on about my weight when I was a size 5 and now that I'm a size 0 people still go on and on. People are so jealous of one another. Girls are simply evil. It was really cool to see what everyone had to say about the issue. People mentioned about how the media is also to blame for people developing eating disorders, which I think is totally true. Did I watch the Victoria's Secret fashion show? No I did not. Why? Because those bitches are so damn skinny and I would probably workout for a month straight. I don't know, I guess the whole topic is just really important to me. I have never had an eating disorder, but I know what it's like to feel like if I just lost X amount of weight, I'd be sexy and life would be perfect. I lost so much weight, people give me so much crap about it. But I'm not sure if I'll ever actually feel like I'm a size 0.. even though I am. Gosh, we're all brainwashed. I don't understand why anyone uses someone's weight against them. Like when I started dating Lucas and his ex went on and on about how I used to be "fat". People are so cruel, shallow and jealous. But, whatever. I love who I am, and I'm happy with the body I have.. people are always going to find something to criticize.
Today something I got for Lucas came in and another book I bought...
I read a blog about this book, and I've wanted it ever since. Hopefully I get some time to read soon. I took on another project. I can't mention it yet because it's part of Lucas' Christmas present.. I'm so excited about it! I bought everything I need for it.. I just need to plan it all out. I really can't wait for Christmas to be over so I can share everything I got for people! 
I guess I should go shower and get ready. We're going to eat with Lucas' parents and although he said 8.. I have a feeling it's going to be earlier than that. He's so tired today. I mean, obviously my 5 hours of sleep in 3 days is pretty bad.. but I'm so loopy from it. Can't wait to actually get some sleep these next three days!